Tuesday, February 21, 2012

A post of randomness

Its one of those nights. again. my mind is just spinning. nothing really going on up there, just alot of randomness. and its always fun to post a bunch of randomness. cuz then I can pretend I am witty and funny and amusing ;)

did you know that the word 'random' looks, well, random? well. at 2 am it does. who comes up with these words? some words just make no sense. especially at 2 in the moring when you look at a word and think to yourself, "that really is a word right? I mean, I didn't just make it up did I"? no one else does that? oh. ok then.

I decided to shave my legs tongiht, cuz I'm not tired, and I love the feeling of clean shaven legs on clean sheets, but then I remembered that tomorrow is sheet washing day and that HH is sound asleep on said sheets, cuz he sleeps at night, like a normal person, while I am up doing laundry, doing dishes, making his lunch, pinning on pinterest,

(do you know what pinterest is? you DON"T??? google it. it will blow your mind, and you will become hooked and you will waste many countless hours looking at what other people have pinned and you will give yourself unattainable hopes and dreams of becoming crafty like every other woman in the world, then you will feel like a gigantic failure when you remember you are just not really crafty, and you should stick to reading books and picking up peoples messes, cuz that is what you are truly good at.)

*sorry. rabbit trail. or rabbit hole? hmmmm.....

ok, back to "while I am up...." .... shaving my legs, reading books, and I cannot for the life of me figure out how I could sneak those sheets out from under him while he is lying, (laying?) on said sheets, so I can get them washed so when I do get tired enought to sleep I will have clean sheets to sleep on with my cleanly shaven legs.

anyhoo... I decided to shave my legs, and of course I cannot find a decent razor of my own, because my girls steal my razors cuz they leave theirs in the shower and then theirs get rusty and icky so they wont use them, so they use mine, and leave mine in the shower, and then mine gets rusty and icky, so then I won't use it either. so you know what I do? I steal one of HHs razors ;) he gets those nice fancy razors with replacement blades cuz he shaves his head every week since the wetjet incident of 2010, (when a wet jet blew up in his face and his hair started on fire and his eyebrows and eyelashes singed off his face and he had an awesome scary looking face for about a month cuz of the burns). yeah. he buys those fancy blades. so I sneak a fresh one, shave my legs, then dry it off and sneak it back in and put his blade back on the handle then put it back in the cabinet all while he is sound asleep. none the wiser ;)

does this make any sense? I'm thinking it doesn't. but really? what does make sense at 2 in the morning?

popsicles. did you know you can get ones that are made with real fruit juice? and they taste super yummy. and I can convince myself that 1 popsicle = 1 serving of fruit. so, say, its 2 in the morning, and I am bored and my throat hurts, and I really want a popsicle? wham! 1 popsicle.1 serving of fruit. WINNING!!! 3 popsicles you say??? well. that is 3 servings of fruit, silly!!! ;) and now you really want to know the truth? the only reason I like popsicles is because they are naughty. try it eat a popsicle and not make it look 'dirty'. try it. you can thank me after you remove all of the popsicles from of your freezer and ban them from your home from now until eternity. ;)

did you know that my filter is pretty much non existant at 2 in the morning? well. you do now.

well, the laundry is calling me. and I am thinking muffins for breakfast is sounding really good. sooooo.... later dudes!!!

A Good Place

Ever have that feeling when you just KNOW that you are in a good place? Things may not always be easy. Relationships may not be perfect. Children are learning lessons, some of them hard lessons. And yet you just KNOW that you are in a good place in your life? Yep. That's how I have been feeling the last couple weeks.

I have an amazing, godly husband who loves us more than words can say. Seeing his heart for his girls brings tears to my eyes. Knowing he wants what is best for them, how he wants to protect their hearts and guide them thru the rocky path of teenage life, it makes me fall in love with him even more.

Seeing the love he has for the teenagers that come thru our door, (and sometimes it seems they will never leave) knowing he is the only male influence some of these kids have in their lives, and seeing him rise to the responsibility, it makes my heart happy.

Watching him guide our only son, trying to raise him up to be a man of courage. A man that will be used greatly by God. Seeing him struggle to walk that line between being tough enough on our boy, but yet be gentle and loving and kind also. It makes my heart happy to see them both growing to be the men God wants them to be.

We are in a very good place right now. A place that our family has not been in for a very long time. It makes my heart happy.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

10 on Tuesday...

yep, no imagination. kinda stretching here for a title ;) but I can go with this. I think.

1) loves it when, watching a movie, and a very cool classic car comes on screen, my girls freak out. "OOOHHHHHH!!!! NICE car!!!!!" lol! they are my girls. no denying it ;)

2) I have the Pack convinced that we need another baby. or 2. or 3 ;) not thinking HH will agree, but we can work on him.

3) frosting fights before bed are a LOT of fun :) its not fun falling asleep cuddled up to HH when he smells like frosting. yuck.

4) still working on the hot tub thing. pretty much convinced we need to have one. especially when HH comes home and he's hurting so bad. a soak in a hot tub would be just the thing for him ;)

5) everytime Blue Eyes walks thru the livingroom, she has a different shirt on. we are keeping track. its the 4th shirt so far this afternoon.

6) I am kinda falling in love with this little peanut that I get to watch 4 days a week :) I am not good at sharing her with the Pack. they arent very happy with me about that. they will have to get over it. I never have been good at sharing.

7) woke up this morning with the WORST headache ever. at least the worst headache that I've had in a long time. it was horrible. it was a "bury your head under the covers, pray you don't throw up, eyes pounding out of your head, I just want to cry" headache. I hate those. especially when you wake up with it. and it won't go away.

8) after a ton of ibuprofen and tylenol and a pot of coffee, it finally eased. not gone, but at least its bearable. :P

9) I have no clue what to make for supper. anyone else ever have this problem? I get sick and tired of the same old stuff. but I have a hard time thinking outside of the box sometimes. at least when it comes to meals. everything else? yeah, I'm pretty much an "out of the box" type of thinker ;)

10) thinking I may have to run to the big town tonight and look for hinges for a cabinet door. I have already boughten 2 sets of hinges for this cabinet door. neither of them were right. but it gives me an excuse to get out and do something. so I'm not complaining ;)

ok. I did it. kinda. ok. lets be honest, that was the most boring excuse for a blog post that I have ever done. :P remember the worst headache ever? yeah. I'm gonna blame it on that. my brain feels scrambled at this point. so I'm going to just forget about trying to make it sound like I have an interesting life this week. so I'm gonna go with boring.

"A very boring 10 on Tuesday" thats should be my title. ;)

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Just a bunch of nonsensical thoughts.

See, that sounds much more mature than, "just a bunch of random thoughts". Ok, maybe not more mature. more interesting? yeah. I'll go with interesting. I like to pretend that I'm an interesting person. With a life. and friends. Notice the word 'pretend'? yeah. I think I am pretty much pretending.

I wanted to go out the other night. Maybe sit at a place to eat and hang out. HH wanted to stay home and watch a tv program and then catch the news b4 he went to bed. So, a tv program and news are more interesting than me. yeah. *tear*

So Beans takes pity on me and we head to the big town to sit at a place to eat and hang out. And we ask another person if they want to come hang out. Hm. nope. that darn news is very interesting to ppl lately. More interesting than me. yeah. *tear*

SO then I'm thinking maybe I'm not that fun of a girl. and thats totally not acceptable at all. cuz I have always been a VERY fun girl. And now I'm thinking ppl think I am too old to be fun anymore? or maybe the 'married with 5 kids' scares ppl a little bit. hm. *tear*

Oh, one good thing happened when Beans and I went out and hung out at a place to eat for 2 hrs. I was asked if Beans and I were SISTERS!!!! Oh. Be still my heart. I think I kinda sorta love that person. And I should find out where they live and make them cookies or something. But maybe that would seem kinda stockerish. So that probably wouldn't be such a good idea. Yeah. That might be kinda sorta weird. (did you know the rule 'i before e except after c' does not always apply? yeah. try teaching this stuff. yuck.) So. no cookies for the amazingly awesome person that I may just be a little in love with for calling Beans and I sisters. bummer for them. I make some amazingly awesome cookies ;)

I'm in another one of those moods. When my brain is going about 100 mph. and nothing makes sense. and I can't sleep. cuz my brain is going about 100 mph. and then I have no appetite (a good thing :) but the less and I sleep and the less I eat the more crazy my mind goes. Poor HH. Its fun for the first few nights. then he's ready to tranq me.

I know tranq is not spelt right. But I really did not want to write out 'tranquilize' , but now spell check is telling me that tranq is not a word and its bugging me. so, 'tranq' is my word for 'tranquilize'. and I probably will never ever have to use that word again. anywho.

And did you know that even when you are trying to be careful and you specifically ask the server if there are any sort of nuts in the dessert that Beans wanted and my plan was just to steal a couple bites of, and they tell you no, there are NO NUTS, do not believe them. they don't know anything. cuz chances are its from a mix that was made in a plant that had nuts on the equipment or they used the same knife to cut a dessert with nuts that they used to cut your dessert. its bad. very bad. cuz then you drink every bit of liquid thats on the table. like 5 gallons of diet pepsi and water and you chew all the ice that in the glasses. anything to make the swelling go down.

Then you decide to go out of town and try to get yourselves lost. and it works amazingly well. seriously, hopelessly lost. with no bathroom in sight. bad idea. very bad idea. but it was a fun night ;)

And I want a hot tub. I really really want a hot tub. just throwing that in there. cuz hot tubs have endless possibilities. and. yeah. I'll stop there.

Anyone know what they say about chewing ice? no? ok. well I'll leave it at that.

Hopefully my brain gets off the "amped" speed and gets back to normal soon. or maybe not. it is kinda fun to be thinking at 100 mph.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

A Daydream Believer

Does everyone have a bucket list? those things that we dream of doing? some of them may be way out of our reach. some may be so simple but we just don't take the time to do them. You can tell the kind of mood I am in by what I am dreaming about.

Today I am dreaming of a cross country road trip on the back of a motorcycle.
blue skies and water as far as the eye can see.
the smell of salt water in the air.
A new tattoo. on my wrist.
surfboards and suntans. *not gotten by lying around!! but by hiking, swimming, surfing, LIVING!!!*

I dream of spur of the moment movie dates with old friends. And sitting at perkins afterwards and remembering when we were young and dumb. and wishing we could go back

Sometimes I dream of things past. lovely memories that I wish I could go back to...

I dream of getting into my first car and tearing around those gravel roads we terrorized as teens. the car that I could start without the key. the car that made my eyes sparkle. the car that only sat 4 but we could pack at least 7 into ;) timberlake road.

I dream of those carefree days at the lake every summer.
falling asleep by the campfire.
having the ongoing, " put down the tents in the middle of the night" wars with the boys.
tubing behind the boats.
football at lonetree!!!!
working at the campground store and getting paid with hrs on the jet skis :)
night games at the campground (and ALWAYS ending up covered in band aids cuz I was such a klutz).
summer crushes.
barefeet all the time.
that lovely feeling of sunburn and sore muscles.
getting back from volleyball camp and sleeping for 3 days straight, in the sun, on a lawn chair, wrapped in a big white comfy blanket :)
pounce!!! (Amy! Do you remember how to play??? )
the theme song from Robin Hood being whistled, from the shelter on the hill, and knowing who it was. sneaking away to the beach to hang out. :)
riding bike to spicer and swimming in our clothes.
lifeguards. lol!

I dream of snowmobile trips up north.
stopping at little cafes or inns for hot cocoa.
winter campfires on the ice.
the smell of snowmobile exhaust in the shop when we were getting ready to go. I still love the smell of snowmobile exhaust. :)


I watch Beans as she stands on chairs and dances and laughs. I listen to Mouth and her off the wall thoughts. I watch my Blue Eyed dreamer as she flits from one thing to another. Little Brother as he is always making stuff, and loves to be building forts and weapons. Baby Sister as she tries so hard to fit in with her older sisters. I see myself in all of them.

My uncle stated that its good to remember those days, when we didn't have dreams, we had possibilities. So perfect. We did have possibilities. And it was amazing.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Amped

Its kind of getting old. Feeling like my brain is going 100 mph is getting old. its giving me a headache. a big headache. not the constant headache I always have. this is something different all together. and my neck hurt and my shoulder hurts. and I can't sleep. cuz my brain never shuts off. urgh!!!!
any suggestions? none? really?
well you guys are no help at all! ;)
But I did get a lot done today. yay me!
I guess that's one good thing to say for being amped.
But I think The Pack is getting concerned. and so is HH.
Mainly cuz I NEVER shut up and my filter, yeah, that dang filter that I fight all the time, its been off for the last few days. So its been, "Watch out! Shanan will say ANYTHING!!!! around here".
Even worse than usual.
Mouth goes with it.
Beans rolls her eyes.
Blue Eyes just shakes her head
and Little Brother and Baby Sister?
they steer clear.
Cuz everyone knows having a crazy mom is just plain embarrassing ;)
I pretend that I'm that cool mom that everyone wishes they had. But I think I'm just fooling myself.
I think crazy would be a more apt word to use in this situation.
yep.
crazy it is.

maybe tomorrow I will wake up and feel melloooowwww.
who am I kidding?
I am not very often considered mellow.
all I can say is that I hope that, when your brain feels like its going 100 mph, your actually
burning calories as if your whole body was going 100mph.
But that's just wishful thinking I think ;)

K. goodnight. maybe "mellow Shanan with the filter" will be back tomorrow. guess we will have to see

As Seen On Facebook....

Its been a very weird weekend. I was, and still am, in a really weird mood. My uncle said it best when he said, " *Name I shall not say* is so mellow, and you are so... AMPED!" Lol. Yeah. Just a little amped. still am. I feel like my brain is spinning around at 100 mph. It keep the Pack and HH on their toes, that's for sure.... this must be what it feels like to be on speed. I wouldn't know cuz I've never tried ANYTHING. But I imagine this is what it would be like. (Even my typing is like super speed).
As I was looking back at my FB post over the weekend, I had to giggle. Even from them, you can tell I am amped.
Here's what my status updates looked like this weekend:

Saturday:
Stupid Peanuts! You'd think I would learn!

Saturday:
is really really antsy. and totally talkative right now. and annoying my husband with my random topic choices ;)

Saturday:
Would really really love a hot tub right about now.

Saturday:
no honey, we don't want a tv in our bedroom.... so instead, lets bring the laptop and kindle in bed with us.... hmmmmmmmmmm..... rethinking the whole, 'no tv in the bedroom' thing

Sunday:
sometimes having daughters with the same size feet as me sucks! I buy socks. colored socks that are not anything like they own. so they can't take mine. guess what???? yeah. they wear all my socks, then act all offended when I flip out on them cuz I have NO socks in my basket. urgh. and my shoes. my cool shoes. my nice shoes. yeah. they take them too

Sunday:
is super antsy today.... hmmm. what to do what to do?

Sunday:
sometimes its nice to be home alone with our Pack :)

Sunday:
loves the feeling of freshly trimmed hair :)

Early Monday morning:
why is no one else awake at 1230 in the morning

Monday:
5 hrs of sleep and still wired.... so weird!

Monday:
has been called "Sexy Captain" and "babe" in the last 2 days... sadly I don't think either of them were actually directed at me *tear* LOL


yeah. Can you tell I've been amped all weekend? and it carried over to today. yay!!!! time to get things done around here!!!! Might as well take advantage of this ;)