why do I love you?

Sometimes, I just sit and look at my man

(he's very sexy)

and I'll *sigh* and say,

I love you.

which he undoubtedly will respond with

"why??"

so here,

my dear.

  is why....

1~ you always let me have the last bite of your ice cream cone.

well. unless you're mad at me.

but usually you give me that last bite.

it's my favorite part of a cone.

I can do without having a cone

as long as you give me that last bite of yours ;)

2~ you still take me for drives on country roads.

those back roads that are twisty and hilly

and easy to get lost in

and you still try to get me all turned around

then you look at me,

smile

and say,

"get us home"

:)

(when we were kids I would never have a clue on how to get us home,

but we have those neat little direction thingys now.

you know,

the N, S, E, W thingy on the dash?

yep, that is the only way I can get us home :)

3~ you shave your head.

cuz you knows I love it :)

4~ you makes fun of my allergies

but yet,

when you see a bee

you get me out of the way quick

or if we are eating somewhere, you ask if

there are nuts in anything.

you are my protector :)

you remember to bring my pillow and

usually a blanket with when we are staying

overnight somewhere.

(its never fun to spend time away from home

covered in an itchy rash)

5~ you can tell, when you walk in the house after work, if

I am having a headache day. 

 you kick the Pack out

and make supper

you put dark blankets over the windows

and make sure things are kept to a dull roar

until I am feeling myself again

6~ you never complained when I would stay up all night

reading a good book

even when I had the lamp on the enitre night.

you bought me a kindle :)

now you get your sleep

and I get my books:)

7~ thru 5 babies,

then toddlers,

me working nights

you working days

you never complained about the

dirty dishes in the sink

dirty laundry piled up in the bathroom.

you would get home,

send me to bed

(so I could maybe get an hr or 2 of sleep b4 I went back to work)

and you would make supper, get the house cleaned up

kids bathed and ready for bed.

then you would wake me up in time for me to head to work.

8~ when we see a really nice old car

you look at me and grin

and ask me the make and model.

I usually can get it right,

within a yr or 2 at least.

then you smile at me :)

and I smile back

:)

9~ when we go to the fair,

you find a bench for just the two of us

right by the band shell

and we cuddle together

and you hold my hand

and you sing the songs to me.

very quiety

in my ear.

and my heart goes boom boom

10~ whenever we get soda pop

you always give me the ice thats left

in the bottom of your cup.

cuz I always chew ice.

(how do you not get annoyed about that???)

the list goes on and on....

I will keep adding to it.

cuz I gotta say.

I think I fall more and more in love with you.

everyday :)

given enough coffee, I can rule the world!!!

or not.

after a full pot of coffee by 9 am, you'd think I would be a little more awake.

nope. not at all.

I'm blaming it on my allergies.

I am miserable with allergies the last couple weeks.

watched the news last night,

was informed that the pollen, ragweed, ect allergies will be getting worse

kill.

me.

now.

I have a houseful of little kids

I am not used to a houseful of little kids

who knew?

my big girls took the little ones to the new park

its nice having big girls :)

lets see, whats happened in the last 2 months???

ummmm...

nothing?

yep.

really not much has happened...

Blue Eyes crashed and burned on her bike.

separated her shoulder

and was in a sling for a few weeks

Mouth is now 14!!!!!!

that was,

for some reason??

a really big deal.

then she texts me

this was the text,

"hey, if any guy asks dad if he can

go out with me tell them I don't want to

date till in I'm 15, or 16.

okay."

lol!!! Love that girl!!!!

she got her own phone

she loves it

Baby Sister is revolting

she does not want to be considered "little"

my opinion?
tough

you are little.  ;)

Little Brother is always on the go

fishing

biking

jumping

working with HH

he never wears a shirt,

ever.

we find ourselves having to remind him

to put a shirt on for church

weird

Beans is working working working

and when she's not working at her reg job

she's working with her dad

or helping me with daycare kids

I kinda sorta love that girl.

me

the girl who does not like animals

(ok, I probably would like them if I wasn't allergic to them)

has seemed to be left with this menagerie of pets on a daily basis

daily

poop patrol

feeding

watering

brushing

refereeing

have I mentioned that I do not like animals???

yeah

kids are all out of the house

I should probably get something done around here

while I can ;)

time to crank the music!

later dudes



knee surgery and the mean mom

Not much going on around here lately... lets see

HH goes in for knee surgery Friday. he messed it up a month ago and we finally got approval from the insurance to go ahead with the surgery. It will be amazing around here while he recovers I'm sure.

Beans got a kitten, cuz we need another animal in this house

Blue Eyes still has her little rat dog, Boo. even the ppl at the vet office didn't know if he was really really cute? or just so ugly, that he's cute.

Mouth is still growing. 5'9". seriously???

Little Brother finally started growing!!!! after 4 seasons of wearing the same clothes I finally got to buy him bigger sizes!

Baby Sister is, well, she's 10. and she's trying to find her own "thing" with 3 older sisters, it isn't easy.

life is always busy around here. always have a house full of kids. today I sent them all away. sometimes I need to reclaim my house and get some breathing room.  

we put some summer rules into place a month ago, needless to say, 3 of the pack have been grounded in the last month. hoping they learn and this wont be an ongoing pattern for the summer :P 

thinking I may have to implement a few other things soon.... like, no friends till noon. mandatory reading time. and chores HAVE to get done BY noon or no friends for the day. 

I hate being the 'mean mom' all the time.

I start round 2 of my diet next week... here's hoping for another 40 lbs!

I have a feeling we will be doing a lot of yard work in the coming month. a few days ago we had a storm come thru and we had a mess to clean up, it got HH in the mood to get the yard looking good. we have heard the chainsaw going in the evenings around here. Little Brother does most the mowing, and we finally got a good weed whip, so he's loving that new toy. yesterday he asked me if I could show him how to run the chainsaw.... I told him, "uh,no. that won't be happening."  I'm sure he will be cutting down trees and splitting wood for the winter soon tho. man they grow up fast.  *tear*

A May post

*conversation with Beans this morning*

"mom, how does this look for work???"
like you just rolled out of bed, put a Zorbaz shirt on and called it good....
"oh. I'll take the white shirt off... how does it look now?"
perfect. lol.

*conversation with Mouth this morning*

"hey mom. did you know that people are jealous of our life?"
why would people be jealous of OUR life?!?!?
"cuz we have a pretty amazing life, mom. pretty fricken amazin'."

I love her. and yes, I think we have a pretty amazing life too.
when the house is clean.
when the bills are paid.
when the kids are healthy.
when HH isn't hurting.
and everyone is on a good mood!!! lol

I banned the skateboard to the outside.
cutest baby in the world is now rolling
and she spends a lot of time on the floor playing.
the skateboard was scary to have wizzing around
the house when she was playing on the floor.
so it got banned to the outside.

I finally finished my school/craft room cabinets!!!
sanded, painted, painted some more, hardware on
and up on the walls!!! today I will be cleaning out
my craft supplies and getting everything organized!!
     "I love it when a plan comes together!!"
*anyone know what movie that line is from??*

ok. I have been on this diet. its a hard diet. not for the faint
of heart. not for someone without determination. not for
someone going it alone. (you have to have support on this one!!!)
its a crazy, sometimes stupid!!, diet. and sometimes I hate it and
I cheat and I EAT some real food ;)  but the results cannot be
argued. I started this diet the first week of May. and I have
now lost 34 pounds!!! :) 

I told the Pack that I would be crabby.
I havent been crabby :) super hyper? yes. have energy comin out
of my ears? yes!  sleeping good? yes! crabby? NOPE!!! :) 
ok. I have had my moments. when I want to EAT food.
real food. not lettuce. but those moments pass pretty quickly :)

my reward for losing the first 30?
I got my hair cut :)
and my cartilage pierced :)
and no, I am NOT being a rebel!!!
and I am not a freak (auntie!!!)
I am being the me that I have always
been, but have never allowed others to see.

if only you guys knew who I would like to be!!
I think you would be surprised. lol

but thats for another post  ;)

A post of updates....

yikes! almost a month since I last posted? thats kinda ridiculous. even for me. so lets update on a few things.....

Mouth had another CT scan. everything was clear. nothing abnormal and no lingering infections or inflammation! I have to admit, I breathed a sigh of relief. She still struggles with memory issues, and trying to find the right words for things, but she's working thru it. some days  I have noticed she just doesnt talk much, I am wondering if thats how she's dealing. by just not saying much  :/  Something I need to keep my eye on I think.

Little Brother is still skateboarding thru the house on every chance he gets. and we are still tripping over him everytime we turn around, but according to him, "these floors are PERFECT for skateboarding!!" lol. and to be honest? I really dont mind ;)

It still hasnt warmed up around here much. which is a big bummer for me :/ and we have had a lot of rain the last week. which is not good for the basement :P  and the dryer broke down. I mean totally broke down, "the no point in trying to save" type of brokedown. it sucks.  but HH had an ingenius idea, and we strung clothesline in our addition :) so now we have clothes hanging around the house drying :)  and surprisingly I don't mind one bit :)  I think after 6 months of living in a house under construction, I can handle clothes hanging to dry. lol 

I had another birthday. I really don't like birthdays that much. I am not feeling any older, yet the calendar says I am. I don't think thats fair. ;) I tell HH daily, 'I refuse to get any older!" he just shakes his head and creaks and groans when he gets off the couch. and I giggle. and call him, "sexy old man".

Spring is such a busy time of birthdays around here, so maybe I'll update everyone on my Pack's ages...

                                                                      Beans ~ 16

                                                                   Blue Eyes  15

                                                                        Mouth  13

                                                                  Little Brother  12

                                                            Baby Sister  10


not much else new around here... I will try to to a better job of posting, I know there has been funny stories that have been overlooked and I am just too lazy and tired to try to pull them out of this foggy brain of mine tonight. so maybe in the near future we will have some funnies to post. but for tonight, I'm going to bed.

                                                              Later Dudes.

Hump day

it stormed last night :) I love thunderstorms. in case you hadn't heard. LOVE them.

and then i woke up this morning and the sun was shining :) I love the sunshine. in case you hadn't heard. LOVE it.

and HH was home till almost 9! and i was in a really good mood. and The Pack was in a really good mood :) its only 9:20. and its already been an amazing day.

I love days like this :)

the house is clean. dishes are done. showers have been taken. laundry is chugging away. HH went to work. YG tonight. (so I get my 2 hrs to MYSELF!!!) Cutest baby in the world should be getting here any minute. :)

Little Brother received a skate board from Baby Sister for his birthday. hard wood floors + 12 yr old with a brand new board = chaos!!!! and can I say? I kinda love it. :)

my girls have been crazy lately! so much fun! and crazy :) love them to death. they make me smile :)

HH has been working. a lot. and when he comes home he hurts. and he's exhausted. so I give him a back massage and he falls asleep. can you say 'BORING!!!" ??? yeah. its boring. especially when I'm in a super good, bouncing off the walls, HAVE SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT, mood ;) lol! poor guy. i think i can get to be too much for him sometimes.

Mouth cleaned my van yesterday. really cleaned it. it looks A.MAZ.ING!!!! so HH left his truck here today so she can clean it :) as long as she has a stereo, she's all good :) "crank up the music and dig in" is her motto (wonder where she got that?) I think anyone could find our house on a "deep clean" day just by following the beat :)

time to go. I think I'm gonna clean out the fridge and freezer. so if you hear a beat? drop by and visit :)

later dudes!!!

I'm that girl

That girl that collects all the shopping carts and puts them in the cart corral in the parking lot at Walmart. and takes the ones that are not in "order", out and puts them back in. in order. and the Pack gets embarrassed and pleads with me to just "get in the van!! plz!! MOM!!!!".

That girl that could never work at walmart because she would get stuck at the bargain bin movies, putting them in alphabetical order. cuz that's how they should be.

That girl that hates wearing shoes. even in the winter.

That girl that dreams of wandering this earth, with no destination in mind. meeting strangers, taking pictures, immersing myself in the cultures and lives of others.

I'm that girl that talks to strangers at the store. opens doors for the elderly, smiles at babies, and helps mothers with small children because she knows what they are going thru.

I'm that girl that loves thunderstorms and dancing in the rain. barefoot, with her hair down. :) She loves mud puddles.

I'm that girl that loves to sing in the shower, cranks up the stereo when she's cleaning the house, and grabs random children to dance around the room with.

I'm that girl that opens up all the windows when it hits 50 degrees in the spring of the year, but grabs a blanket to wrap herself up with to take a nap on the deck in the sunshine when its 80.

I'm that girl that cannot watch an entire movie without getting distracted by something. then loses her place and spends the rest of the movie asking everyone else what is going on.

I'm that girl that goes for walks in the middle of the night. in the rain. she stops in the middle of the street, spreads out her arms, tilts her face to the sky, and loves to feel the water cascade down her face and hair.

I'm that girl that has to sleep in total darkness and silence. When she sleeps at all.

I'm that girl.

That girl that is sarcastic when she shouldn't be. can be brutally honest when it would be best to keep her mouth shut. I'm that girl that speaks first and thinks later. gets mad quickly but asks for forgiveness just as quickly.

I'm that girl that loves to cuddle on the couch to watch a movie. but will probably fall asleep half way thru then wake up and want to know how it ended. :)

I'm that girl that loves to use her man's chest as a human pillow. but rarely is allowed to :P

I'm that girl that can have a biting comment but also will flash you a smile and a wink out of nowhere.

I'm that girl. that girl that loves with all her heart, trusts most everyone. but when you break her trust, you will have to work very hard for her to even give you the time of day.

I'm that girl that crunches on ice in the next booth over at the restaurant and in the row behind you at the movie theater ;) sorry about that.

I'm that girl that will ignore her phone for days on end. but can't live without her computer.

I'm that girl.