Don't you love dreamin? and 'what if'ing'?
you know how it works...
what if we won the lottery? (of course we would have to play the lottery first ;)
what if $ wasn't an option?
just think what it will be like when...
its just the 2 of us.
we have grandkids playing on the floor
and cuddling on the couch with us
I can put something away and when I need it
3 weeks later, it will STILL BE THERE!
......
what would we do if we had everything paid off? and if we had a million dollars?
or more than a million dollars? mmmm...
you know how it works...
I would buy a new camera.
with a super duper zoom lens.
HH would get that 4 wheeler.
or a motorcycle and we would travel.
I would put in a beautiful garden.
and landscape :)
I would put better lighting in my kitchen.
HH would get that dump trailer for work.
The Brat Pack would all get bikes. nice bikes.
and snowboards and season passes to the nearest ski hill
we would take the BP to the nearest amusement park.
(they've never been to an amusement park.)
When we get old....
we will travel
and go south for the winter
and drive a car
and live in a little cabin by the lake
and go fishing from a little row boat
and sit by a campfire every night
and dream
and ' what if'
and remember when we were young
and the kids were all at home
and life seemed so hard
and we will want it all back...
just so we can have Mouth come running up to us and throw
her arms around us and give us a big smack on the cheek
and hear her yell across the road, "HEY MOM!!! I
LOOOOOVVVEEEE YOU!!!"
Just so we can have Baby Sister sit next to us and go into
a very long and detailed description of her day.
Just so we can find nails and tools in the weirdest spots
as Little Brother always has a project in the works.
Just so we can see Blue Eyes come twirling down the
stairs and give us that big smile and flash her dimple at us.
Just so we can have Beans cuddle next to us on the couch
and listen to her tell us her hopes and dreams and heartaches.
and then we came to this conclusion,
as we sat by the fire last night,
we LOVE our life.
every hard time makes us grow and brings us closer.
we are a perfect team for this life that we have.
it may not be an easy life. but its our life. and we will love and
embrace every minute of it.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
An uninteresting life
every get that feeling? like you live a very boring life? and nothing ever happens? yeah. I sometimes feel like that too. maybe I am feeling sorry for myself this weekend? yeah. thats probably it. it was a very long week. HH didn't get home till after 8 most days. that makes for a very long week for me. and it has been super cold around here :P we had a 2 day tease. upper 90's! then. BAM!! highs in the 60's. the Brat Pack has not been happy about it. no swimming at our favorite little swimming hole. which means they are at the house. whining. complaining. bored. HH worked all weekend. again. he's exhausted. and short-tempered. and the BP are whining. and complaining. and bored. anyone want my life? yeah. thats what I thought. ;)
But HH promised to take next weekend off! YAY!!!!! and I am going to let him sleep in. and make him breakfast in bed. and make him amazing suppers. and we are going to cuddle in bed. and go for a walk. and he will buy me flowers....
reality?
he won't sleep in because then his back will hurt. he will get up early Saturday morning because he hasn't been home to get things done around here. there will be argueing. and chores. and work. we will all eat sandwiches because I will only have minutes to throw together a meal after working beside him to get all the things done around here. the walking will be done between the trailer and the house and around the yard. oh. and he won't buy me flowers. because he never thinks of those kinds of things. :'(
but at least he'll be HOME!!! right?
hmmmm. maybe the BP and I will have to get everything we can think of done this week so by Saturday he won't have anything to do....
But HH promised to take next weekend off! YAY!!!!! and I am going to let him sleep in. and make him breakfast in bed. and make him amazing suppers. and we are going to cuddle in bed. and go for a walk. and he will buy me flowers....
reality?
he won't sleep in because then his back will hurt. he will get up early Saturday morning because he hasn't been home to get things done around here. there will be argueing. and chores. and work. we will all eat sandwiches because I will only have minutes to throw together a meal after working beside him to get all the things done around here. the walking will be done between the trailer and the house and around the yard. oh. and he won't buy me flowers. because he never thinks of those kinds of things. :'(
but at least he'll be HOME!!! right?
hmmmm. maybe the BP and I will have to get everything we can think of done this week so by Saturday he won't have anything to do....
Monday, June 6, 2011
Monday Ponderings
Ponderings... what a funny looking word. Don't ya think?
Anywho. I was thinking today. Amazing. I know.
do you know how scary it is when your 15 yr old comes home. excited. because 2 20 yr olds asked for her phone number? yeah. super scary. no. she didn't give them her phone number. she's smart that way.
I love seeing the kids tearing around the neighborhood on their bikes. I hate dealing with bikes that need constant repair. and they ALWAYS need repair when the Pack insists on jumping them. and you have all heard about how Mouth rides bike. she doesn't really ride them. she crashes them.
HH and I spent an hr taking apart chains, replacing broken links, tightening them up. fixing brakes. tightening handle bars. tweaking pedals.
Did you know HH hates working on bikes? yeah. he really really hates it. and their is ALWAYS a few bikes around here that needs fixing. its not a very nice thing for him to come home to after working a 13 hr day. oh. did I mention it was over 90 degrees today? yeah. not a fun night for HH.
we had an interesting weekend. Poor Beans had a run in with some kids. not nice kids. they were, um, under the influence. of drugs. they ganged up on her. they took her bike. they pushed her around. thankfully she had sibs and a few friends around. and thankfully they had cell phones. they called me and HH. he played knight in shining armor and went and saved his little girl. I think kids around here will think twice before they mess with our girls from now on. Beans is still very shaken up. and very disappointed. she knew a few of the kids. and considered them friends. just goes to show how drugs can really mess a person up. we have since found out that a few of the boys are in their 20s... seriously?!? such men. that have to mess with a 15 yr old girl to feel big and bad. HH is still very angry about the whole situation. Beans has a swollen, scraped up leg. she cries when its brought up. I feel horrible for her. Such a hard thing. when the ugliness of this world collide with the innocence of a sweet girl.
HH took Little Brother into the bathroom to cut his hair. then I heard the clippers. then I hear a giggle. sorry, a chuckle. guys don't giggle. remember? then I hear some laughter. and a whispered, "Mom's gonna KILL you!" *fun fact? Little Brother does not know how to whisper.* I go in the bathroom to see HH lathering Little Brothers very bald head with shaving cream. and a razor is waiting on the counter. yeah. I wasn't very happy. at. all. I will be running (not really running. get real people) to buy sunscreen in the morning. no way is that baldy going out in the sun with that shiny ball of virgin skin perched on his skinny little neck without any protection.
If you are ever at a store and a couple teenage girls come up to you and ask you random questions ( what color socks are you wearing? Do you like pancakes?? DO you like WAFFLES??? ect ect), the whole time talking in an old grandma voice? Please don't be scared. They really are harmless. we let them have day passes every once in a great while. they behave kinda crazy when let out. ;)
We spent the afternoon at our favorite little swimming hole. Its the same place that Beans ran into those not very nice kids. I no longer let the Pack go there alone. Its a hardship for me. sitting in a beach chair. all day. with a good book. and snacks. a very big hardship ;) and HH is all for me hanging out at our favorite little swimming hole with our Pack and all of their friends. so I can keep an eye on everyone. and he doesn't mind coming home to a totally trashed house as long as our Pack is safe. :)
just kidding. I was a good wife and made sure the chores were done. supper was ready. and laundry was hanging on the line. then we spent the whole afternoon lazing around our favorite little watering hole :) looks like tomorrow will be the same. oh the hardships that I must endure for the safety of our Pack ;)
I better get HHs lunch ready for tomorrow :) that way I can snuggle under the covers for a few more minutes. not really snuggle. its supposed to stay hot all night. there is no snuggling when its above 75 degrees in the bedroom.
Don't you love it when you are listening to the weather on the 10 o'clock news, and you hear the phrase, "its not the heat, its the HUMIDITY that is oppressive". I have to giggle. when we were down in FL you would here people tell you that FL heat is just horrible.then they would say, " its really not the heat. its the HUMIDITY that is horrible!" lol. and then they wouldn't believe us that we actually DO have tropical heat up in no-wheres-ville. after the 5 ft of snow melts we get the tropical weather. complete with huge blood sucking bugs. its wonderful. really. :D
give me blood sucking bugs and tropical weather over 5 ft of snow any day!
it looks like it will be shining here for the whole week! Sunshine is my happy drug :) I predict a wonderful week:)
Anywho. I was thinking today. Amazing. I know.
do you know how scary it is when your 15 yr old comes home. excited. because 2 20 yr olds asked for her phone number? yeah. super scary. no. she didn't give them her phone number. she's smart that way.
I love seeing the kids tearing around the neighborhood on their bikes. I hate dealing with bikes that need constant repair. and they ALWAYS need repair when the Pack insists on jumping them. and you have all heard about how Mouth rides bike. she doesn't really ride them. she crashes them.
HH and I spent an hr taking apart chains, replacing broken links, tightening them up. fixing brakes. tightening handle bars. tweaking pedals.
Did you know HH hates working on bikes? yeah. he really really hates it. and their is ALWAYS a few bikes around here that needs fixing. its not a very nice thing for him to come home to after working a 13 hr day. oh. did I mention it was over 90 degrees today? yeah. not a fun night for HH.
we had an interesting weekend. Poor Beans had a run in with some kids. not nice kids. they were, um, under the influence. of drugs. they ganged up on her. they took her bike. they pushed her around. thankfully she had sibs and a few friends around. and thankfully they had cell phones. they called me and HH. he played knight in shining armor and went and saved his little girl. I think kids around here will think twice before they mess with our girls from now on. Beans is still very shaken up. and very disappointed. she knew a few of the kids. and considered them friends. just goes to show how drugs can really mess a person up. we have since found out that a few of the boys are in their 20s... seriously?!? such men. that have to mess with a 15 yr old girl to feel big and bad. HH is still very angry about the whole situation. Beans has a swollen, scraped up leg. she cries when its brought up. I feel horrible for her. Such a hard thing. when the ugliness of this world collide with the innocence of a sweet girl.
HH took Little Brother into the bathroom to cut his hair. then I heard the clippers. then I hear a giggle. sorry, a chuckle. guys don't giggle. remember? then I hear some laughter. and a whispered, "Mom's gonna KILL you!" *fun fact? Little Brother does not know how to whisper.* I go in the bathroom to see HH lathering Little Brothers very bald head with shaving cream. and a razor is waiting on the counter. yeah. I wasn't very happy. at. all. I will be running (not really running. get real people) to buy sunscreen in the morning. no way is that baldy going out in the sun with that shiny ball of virgin skin perched on his skinny little neck without any protection.
If you are ever at a store and a couple teenage girls come up to you and ask you random questions ( what color socks are you wearing? Do you like pancakes?? DO you like WAFFLES??? ect ect), the whole time talking in an old grandma voice? Please don't be scared. They really are harmless. we let them have day passes every once in a great while. they behave kinda crazy when let out. ;)We spent the afternoon at our favorite little swimming hole. Its the same place that Beans ran into those not very nice kids. I no longer let the Pack go there alone. Its a hardship for me. sitting in a beach chair. all day. with a good book. and snacks. a very big hardship ;) and HH is all for me hanging out at our favorite little swimming hole with our Pack and all of their friends. so I can keep an eye on everyone. and he doesn't mind coming home to a totally trashed house as long as our Pack is safe. :)
just kidding. I was a good wife and made sure the chores were done. supper was ready. and laundry was hanging on the line. then we spent the whole afternoon lazing around our favorite little watering hole :) looks like tomorrow will be the same. oh the hardships that I must endure for the safety of our Pack ;)
I better get HHs lunch ready for tomorrow :) that way I can snuggle under the covers for a few more minutes. not really snuggle. its supposed to stay hot all night. there is no snuggling when its above 75 degrees in the bedroom.
Don't you love it when you are listening to the weather on the 10 o'clock news, and you hear the phrase, "its not the heat, its the HUMIDITY that is oppressive". I have to giggle. when we were down in FL you would here people tell you that FL heat is just horrible.then they would say, " its really not the heat. its the HUMIDITY that is horrible!" lol. and then they wouldn't believe us that we actually DO have tropical heat up in no-wheres-ville. after the 5 ft of snow melts we get the tropical weather. complete with huge blood sucking bugs. its wonderful. really. :D
give me blood sucking bugs and tropical weather over 5 ft of snow any day!
it looks like it will be shining here for the whole week! Sunshine is my happy drug :) I predict a wonderful week:)
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
A Wednesday List
I have a ton of things on my mind today. so I figured I would put my thoughts in list form :) and you know me with lists... they just keep getting longer and longer as I add to them.
*fun fact ~ when I make my daily to-do list, if I do something NOT on my list. yep. I write it in just so I can cross it off ;) makes me feel like I've accomplished LOTS!
1~ I read an article this morning. a lady challenged herself to not spend any money for 10 days! wow! what a concept! oh wait. I do that on a monthly basis. its called, "we are poor and we have no money, therefore we don't spend any". lol :)
seriously tho? is it hard for people to go 10 days without spending any $ ? I suppose it would be for HH. But he drives. Miles and miles and miles every week. and he's self-employed, he does have work expenses that crop up on a regular basis. But I can go at least 10 days without spending any $ :)
now lets see if we can keep the Pack and HH out of the Drs office for 10 days.... that may be more of a challenge for us.
2~ I have been being a wonderfully caring and giving wife the last few weeks. I make HH lunch every night b4 bed. so its all ready for him in the fridge in the morning :) *insert pat on the back here*
3~ ok. to be totally honest? the reason I make it every night b4 bed? yep. I don't want to get up in the morning and make it. ~ lunch ready for him to grab and go = I get to snuggle under the covers for a few more minutes.
4~ Baby Sister had a follow-up appt on her ankle. we were praying for freedom for her. (meaning no crutches, no cast). We got good news- NO HARD CAST!!! yay!!! and bad news- still in a splint and on crutches for another 2 weeks. go back in 2 weeks to re-evaluate. (she did fracture one of the smaller bones in her ankle)
5~ Baby Sister did too much yesterday. and I think she was using her foot.
she is NOT supposed to be putting weight on her ankle yet.
she was crying and in pain at 2 o'clock this morning.
I am not a very caring and sympathetic mom. (in case you don't remember that fun little fact).
especially at 2 in the morning. :P
6~ ever watched the show "clean house"? or maybe its called "clean sweep". it should be called 'I have too much junk. I am a hoarder and I need someone else to come to my house and go thru everything and sell it all on a giant yardsale so I can have new stuff'. yeah. ever watch that show? I feel like that show has come to my house. (without all the people doing all the hard work for me, and without the 'new stuff' prize at the end). We are cleaning out all the little storage nooks in the house this week. and getting rid of stuff. lots of stuff.
7~ alas, I am too lazy for a yard sale. so I either throw it away. or give it away. or donate it all to GW or the little thrift store in the big town over yonder. I fear I am not tapping into the potential money makers I have sitting in my storage nooks. I am starting to feel a little guilty that I am not doing what I could to help HH with the financial well being of our little family. what do you think?
8~ ever had one of those mornings when you are making coffee and you are dumping the old coffee grounds out of the little basket thingy and the coffee grounds miss the garbage can and land on the floor next to the garbage can? and when putting fresh grounds in the little basket thingy, you totally miss the little basket thingy and end up with a scoopful of coffee grounds on your counter/floor? oh. you haven't? well that was how my morning started. NOT a good sign.
9~ did you know that dogs will not clean up spilled coffee grounds off the floor? well they won't. at least Remi won't. and he eats EVERYTHING.
10~ I have a ton of over-ripe bananas sitting on the kitchen table. and every time I walk by them. I can smell their over-ripeness. and I think of banana bread. I should make banana bread today. HH would love that little addition to his lunches for the rest of the week/weekend.
11~ ever notice the junk they sell on tv? things that they say we cannot live without? but WAIT!! If you call in the next 10 minutes we will DOUBLE YOUR ORDER for FREE!!! (separate shipping and handling may apply)... cracks me up every time the Pack sees one of those commercial... they all yell the, 'BUT WAIT!! IF YOU CALL IN THE NEXT 10 MINUTES....' and then they all gather round me and beg me to order it NOW!! " cuz you know we canNOT live without it mom!!" lol. they keep me laughing. which keeps me young. :D
12~ sometimes when I watch the news (all the flooding and tornadoes in places we have visited/lived) or CMT music videos, and something comes up about someplace we have been, or the music video has the Ryman in the background, or Nashville, or the country singer that is singing on the music video maybe lives in Nashville, I say, "OH! we've been there!" and I sigh and miss the travelling days that I so enjoyed. It send me down a path of reminiscing. not always a good thing I will have you know.
13~ on our way home from Baby Sisters drs appt yesterday I noticed a sign at the end of the road to our house. It said, "ROAD CLOSED TO THRU TRAFFIC". how is it that I did not know about this new little development? I am oddly comforted by the fact that I am not 'THRU TRAFFIC'. (who is ' THRU TRAFFIC'? does this mean that we will not have to worry about teenagers flying thru our quiet little neighborhood?) does this new little development mean at some point, out of the blue, my road may be totally closed off and I can get neither out nor in to my happy little house on the hill? they can't do that. right? hmmmm. now whenever I leave my happy little house on the hill I will have the fear of not being able to get back to it at the end of the day.
14~ the Pack is up. time to get busy with the biggest storage nook of the house. it will be an amazing transformation. I shall take pics :)
Have a wonderful beautiful day! The sun is shining in my little corner of paradise. It will be a great day :)
*fun fact ~ when I make my daily to-do list, if I do something NOT on my list. yep. I write it in just so I can cross it off ;) makes me feel like I've accomplished LOTS!
1~ I read an article this morning. a lady challenged herself to not spend any money for 10 days! wow! what a concept! oh wait. I do that on a monthly basis. its called, "we are poor and we have no money, therefore we don't spend any". lol :)
seriously tho? is it hard for people to go 10 days without spending any $ ? I suppose it would be for HH. But he drives. Miles and miles and miles every week. and he's self-employed, he does have work expenses that crop up on a regular basis. But I can go at least 10 days without spending any $ :)
now lets see if we can keep the Pack and HH out of the Drs office for 10 days.... that may be more of a challenge for us.
2~ I have been being a wonderfully caring and giving wife the last few weeks. I make HH lunch every night b4 bed. so its all ready for him in the fridge in the morning :) *insert pat on the back here*
3~ ok. to be totally honest? the reason I make it every night b4 bed? yep. I don't want to get up in the morning and make it. ~ lunch ready for him to grab and go = I get to snuggle under the covers for a few more minutes.
4~ Baby Sister had a follow-up appt on her ankle. we were praying for freedom for her. (meaning no crutches, no cast). We got good news- NO HARD CAST!!! yay!!! and bad news- still in a splint and on crutches for another 2 weeks. go back in 2 weeks to re-evaluate. (she did fracture one of the smaller bones in her ankle)
5~ Baby Sister did too much yesterday. and I think she was using her foot.
she is NOT supposed to be putting weight on her ankle yet.
she was crying and in pain at 2 o'clock this morning.
I am not a very caring and sympathetic mom. (in case you don't remember that fun little fact).
especially at 2 in the morning. :P
6~ ever watched the show "clean house"? or maybe its called "clean sweep". it should be called 'I have too much junk. I am a hoarder and I need someone else to come to my house and go thru everything and sell it all on a giant yardsale so I can have new stuff'. yeah. ever watch that show? I feel like that show has come to my house. (without all the people doing all the hard work for me, and without the 'new stuff' prize at the end). We are cleaning out all the little storage nooks in the house this week. and getting rid of stuff. lots of stuff.
7~ alas, I am too lazy for a yard sale. so I either throw it away. or give it away. or donate it all to GW or the little thrift store in the big town over yonder. I fear I am not tapping into the potential money makers I have sitting in my storage nooks. I am starting to feel a little guilty that I am not doing what I could to help HH with the financial well being of our little family. what do you think?
8~ ever had one of those mornings when you are making coffee and you are dumping the old coffee grounds out of the little basket thingy and the coffee grounds miss the garbage can and land on the floor next to the garbage can? and when putting fresh grounds in the little basket thingy, you totally miss the little basket thingy and end up with a scoopful of coffee grounds on your counter/floor? oh. you haven't? well that was how my morning started. NOT a good sign.
9~ did you know that dogs will not clean up spilled coffee grounds off the floor? well they won't. at least Remi won't. and he eats EVERYTHING.
10~ I have a ton of over-ripe bananas sitting on the kitchen table. and every time I walk by them. I can smell their over-ripeness. and I think of banana bread. I should make banana bread today. HH would love that little addition to his lunches for the rest of the week/weekend.
11~ ever notice the junk they sell on tv? things that they say we cannot live without? but WAIT!! If you call in the next 10 minutes we will DOUBLE YOUR ORDER for FREE!!! (separate shipping and handling may apply)... cracks me up every time the Pack sees one of those commercial... they all yell the, 'BUT WAIT!! IF YOU CALL IN THE NEXT 10 MINUTES....' and then they all gather round me and beg me to order it NOW!! " cuz you know we canNOT live without it mom!!" lol. they keep me laughing. which keeps me young. :D
12~ sometimes when I watch the news (all the flooding and tornadoes in places we have visited/lived) or CMT music videos, and something comes up about someplace we have been, or the music video has the Ryman in the background, or Nashville, or the country singer that is singing on the music video maybe lives in Nashville, I say, "OH! we've been there!" and I sigh and miss the travelling days that I so enjoyed. It send me down a path of reminiscing. not always a good thing I will have you know.
13~ on our way home from Baby Sisters drs appt yesterday I noticed a sign at the end of the road to our house. It said, "ROAD CLOSED TO THRU TRAFFIC". how is it that I did not know about this new little development? I am oddly comforted by the fact that I am not 'THRU TRAFFIC'. (who is ' THRU TRAFFIC'? does this mean that we will not have to worry about teenagers flying thru our quiet little neighborhood?) does this new little development mean at some point, out of the blue, my road may be totally closed off and I can get neither out nor in to my happy little house on the hill? they can't do that. right? hmmmm. now whenever I leave my happy little house on the hill I will have the fear of not being able to get back to it at the end of the day.
14~ the Pack is up. time to get busy with the biggest storage nook of the house. it will be an amazing transformation. I shall take pics :)
Have a wonderful beautiful day! The sun is shining in my little corner of paradise. It will be a great day :)
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